I still care

Nights after night I've prayed...
I'll get another chance
Just 2 c ur face again
Just 2 c ur smile again

But nothing happened
Not a single thing
I didnt get my prayer
But I'll nvr stop trying

Each night I imagine you
Ur sweet adorable smile
Ur cute smiling eyes
The moments we were 2geta

I miss u sooo much
But u'll nvr know
I can only weep in silence
Hoping dat I'll drain my tears

I really wish ur happy with ur life now
I hope ur happy with whoever she is now
I hope u remember of me always
I hope I'll meet u again someday...

I still care about u...
I still love u...
I really do...

Take k Dear...
I'll nvr forget u...
I nvr will... Mwah!!!

Im type B

Orang berdarah B pula dianggap pemburu. Berbeza dengan orang jenis darah A, mereka ini tidak konvensional, dan mengambil ringan pendapat orang lain (tidak sensitif atas kritikan dan tidak mudah terasa). Tapi ini tidak bermakna mereka langsung tidak mengambil berat tentang orang lain. Mereka sangat bersemangat untuk perkara dan orang yang mereka sayang. Sifat negatif orang jenis darah B ini, mereka boleh nampak sebagai seorang yang tidak serius, dan pemalas, kerana mereka mungkin tidak boleh memenuhi permintaan atau harapan orang lain. Boleh jadi kelihatan tidak sabar jika tidak mengikut cara mereka sendiri.

What Makes Type B Unique

As a Type B, you carry the genetic potential for great malleability and the ability to thrive in changeable conditions. Unlike blood types A and O, which are at opposite ends of every spectrum, your position is fluid, rather than stationary, with the ability to move in either direction along the continuum. It's easy to see how this flexibility served the interests of early Type B's who needed to balance the twin forces of the animal and vegetable kingdoms. At the same time, it can be extremely challenging to balance two poles and Type B's tend to be highly sensitive to the effects of slipping out of balance.

The primary challenges that can get in the way of optimum health for Type B include a tendency to produce higher than normal cortisol levels in situations to stress; sensitivity to the B specific lectins in select foods, resulting in inflammation and greater risk for developing Syndrome X; susceptibility to slow growing, lingering viruses - such as those for MS, CFS, and lupus; and a vulnerability to autoimmune diseases. "If I were to generalize," says Dr. D'Adamo, "I would say that a healthy Type B, living right for his or her own type, tends to have fewer risk factors for disease and tends to be more physically fit and mentally balanced than any of the other blood types." Type B's tended to have a greater ability to adapt to altitude and interestingly, are statistically the tallest of the blood types.

Type B Diet

For Type Bs the biggest factors in weight gain are corn, wheat, buckwheat, lentils, tomatoes, peanuts and sesame seeds. Each of these foods affect the efficiency of your metabolic process, resulting in fatigue, fluid retention, and hypoglycemia - a severe drop in blood sugar after eating a meal. When you eliminate these foods and begin eating a diet that is right for your type, you blood sugar levels should remain normal after meals. Another very common food that Type Bs should avoid is chicken. Chicken contains a Blood Type B agglutinating lectin in its muscle tissue. Although chicken is a lean meat, the issue is the power of an agglutinating lectin attacking your bloodstream and the potential for it to lead to strokes and immune disorders. Dr. D'Adamo suggests that you wean yourself away from chicken and replace them with highly beneficial foods such as goat, lamb, mutton, rabbit and venison. Other foods that encourage weight loss are green vegetables, eggs, beneficial meats, and low fat dairy. When the toxic foods are avoided and replaced with beneficial foods, Blood Type Bs are very successful in controlling their weight.


The Personality Connection

The connection between blood type and personality has long been studied. In an independent study, Dr. D'Adamo found that most Blood Type B's often described themselves in ways related to the following characteristics: subjective, easygoing, creative, original and flexible. In another study, Type B's scored significantly higher on "intuiting," indicating a preference or sixth sense information; and they scored high on the "intuiting/feeling" combination, indicating that they tend to be insightful, mystical, idealistic, creative, globally-oriented, people-oriented and good at imagining. They also reported that they learned best through listening, then reflecting on and interpreting what they had observed. Perhaps the nomadic life of the steppes contributed to long hours given over to talk as well as ample time for meditation and reflection.

Live Right! Here are Dr. D'Adamo's key lifestyle strategies for Type Bs:

* Visualization is a powerful technique for Type Bs. If you can visualize it, you can achieve it
* Find healthy ways to express your nonconformist side
* Spend at least twenty minutes a day involved in some creative task that requires your complete attention
* Go to bed no later than 11:00PM and sleep for eight hours or more. It is essential for B's to maintain their circadian rhythm
* Use meditation to relax during breaks
* Engage in a community, neighborhood or other group activity that gives you a meaningful connection to a group. Type Bs are natural born networkers
* Be spontaneous
* As they age, Type Bs have a tendency to suffer memory loss and have decreased mental acuity. Stay sharp by doing tasks that require concentration, such as crossword puzzles or learn a new skill or language


Type B:
Goal oriented and strong minded, type B's will start a task and continue it until completed, and completed well. Type B's are the individualists of the blood group categories and find their own way in life.

B blood was the predominant blood type in asians and animals.

B is most compatible with B and AB

DARAH ‘ B’
Sempoi! Itulah ungkapan yang paling rapat dengan mu. Kamu lebih selesa
dengan kesederhanaan. Dalam perhubungan pula kamu adalah individu yang
terlalu jujur dan lebih gemar berterus terang dalam apa jua perkara.
Dalam melaksanakan sesuatu tugasan yang diberikan, kamu lebih gemar
melaksanakannya dengan cara kamu sendiri. Kamu adalah individu yang
kreatif dan fleksibel, mudah bagi diri kamu untuk meletakkan diri
sendiri dalam apa jua situasi mahupun kelompok golongan tertentu. Kamu
adalah individu yang bijak bersosial. Namun ada kalanya sikap kamu
yang gemar berdikari dan tidak gemar meminta bantuan orang lain itu,
mampu mendatangkan masalah buat diri mu dan sekali gus memperlihatkan
kelemahan pada diri sendiri. Kamu harus ingat bahawa, tidak semua
perkara kita boleh menyelesaikannya secara bersendirian.

ada kesemilaritian..ehehe.

ST 12 - Saat Terakhir [High Quality]

Dibawah batu nisan kini
Kau tlah sandarkan
Kasih sayang kamuBegitu dalam
Sungguh ku tak sanggup
Ini terjadi
Kerna ku sangat cinta...

Inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
Jatuh air mataku, menangis pilu
Hanya mampu ucapkan
Slamat jalan kasih...

Satu jam saja
Ku telah bisa
Cintai kamu, kamu, kamu, dihatiku...
Namun bagiku, melupakanmu
Butuh waktuku seumur hidup...

Satu jam saja
Ku telah bisa
Sayangi kamu dihatiku
Namun bagiku, melupakanmu
Butuh waktuku seumur hidup
Dihati ku...

I miss you so much Sayang...
Please dont lose contact... :'(

Wedding Song

I wish he's for me... Hrm... :'(

Masih...

Aku masih rindu
Aku masih suka
Aku masih sayang
Aku masih cinta
Aku masih peduli
Aku masih ingat
Aku masih teringat
Aku masih termimpi
Aku masih percaya
Aku masih menunggu
Aku masih sedih
Aku masih kecewa
Aku masih berdoa untuknya
Aku masih setia...

Let me be frank

I dun know...
My head said I dun mind
N I agree with it...
But I dun know y
My heart says 'just wait'...

Wat am I waiting for exactly
I've tried to give up...
Somehow, something always stops me...
Wanting me to continue waiting...
I just cant tell how much Im tried...
Tired of waiting for just 1 damn reply
Tired of being treated like a damn fool...
Dont get me wrong...
Im still in love with him...
But I... I... I dun know why...
I get jealous when he gives attention 2 others except me...
Im jealous when I see his gf's photo...
I admit, I'm not better than she is...
But still, the green eyed monster always manages to appear...

I hate missing him...
I hate myself for still loving him
Eventhough he had left me...
But still, I care about him...
Just hope dat one day soon, I'll go back to my senses...
Just let it go...
Just let it be...
But one thing dat I really want is to meet him...
Meet him for just 1 LAST TIME...
I miss him sooo much... :'(

Confused

Im so confused right now...
How in the hell am I suppose to react???
I keep on thinking bout him...
I can hardly let him go...
Now Im about to go back to where It all had started...
Its gonna b harder later...
I hate it so much...
Im always emotionally unstable...
Ad I think Im in a danger zone, from myself...
I miss him so much...
But he'll never know...
He ignores me that I feel neglected and used...
I really want to hear a word or two from him...
I honestly do...
I dont mind all he had done...
He knows dat he's my prince...
He knows dat I care...
He knows...
Im so confused now...
I should really forget him...
Just let hm go...
But I cant...
I dunno how to...
I've tried so hard...
But still I fail...
Sometimes I want to fail..
But sometimes, I dont think I wanna fail...
I dunno wat to do...
Im lost...
Im totally confused...

07062010

Amidst all the ecstacy of daily routine,
Still I manage to squeeze you right in...
Though so hard have I tried to block,
But only have myself to mock...

Unbelievable, so very unimaginable,
So very different, undescribable...
Much too stubborn, refuse to give up,
But should have, time to step further up...

Broken vow

The pain, the strong urge, all kicking inside...
Forcing to find an exit out of the dungeon...
A place where shattered dreams and crushed hope meet...
A place where there is not even a slice of fun...

I lower my head, hold in my tears...
I force my stubborn heart to obey...
I vow to strut confidently forward...
Not even a glance to the back...

But the vow was only for a moment...
The stubborn heart had finally won...
Not to bring joy but further torment...
Thus here I stand waiting for more dissapointment...

You have dissapointed me...
I have disaapointed myself too...
Maybe Im meant to be dissapointed by others...

Beginning

With red hair, walking confidently.
Ignoring staring eyes, minding own business.
Im back on my feet and on the ground.
Leaving behind the once Damsel in Distress.

Trying to act normal, strut down the lane.
A smile on my lips, eyes shining and gleaming.
Cover all the darkness and hurting pain.
Bury all those damn, fucking feeling.

Opening a new chapter in life, ending the past.
Changing once again, starting a new beginning.
Takes time, rather slowly but very surely.
Open a new book, throw the dusty, old thing.

Gotta learn to live independently again.
With loving family and caring friends.
Not every girl needs by her side a man.
That will only contribute to unwelcomed pain.

Now full of confident, moving fast forward.
Carefull not to be left far behind.
Thrive to achieve the full satisfaction.
The once thrown away, I'll stop to find.

Will not gonna give up, no way, not now.
I'll be back, just wait for me Dear.
Be much stronger than ever, not gonna dissapoint.
Stand on my own, leave behind all those stupid fears.

The life chapter is starting yet once again.
The past will be the hurtful ending.
Conquer all the fears and all the shame.
Three cheers for the new beginning!!!

I Wish...

How must I say this
How to say it the right way
FOr every moment Ive been through
Every single seconds of the day

I Never thought it could be dis way
Never knew it'd ended already
I never wish for it to happen
But it did, much too early

Still I cant forget you
Cant get you out of my mind
Damn this stupid feeling
So deep It hurts inside

Tried to laugh and crack few jokes
Manage to laugh but just minor ones
Scorny face so solemn and blue
Feel like shooting my head with a gun

Suffer a lot, never knew it could be
Never knew Im so weak, Oh Lord, this is not me
I dont cry over others, no way, no siree
But over him, my tears flow freely

Need to act happy, must draw a smile
Need to stay strong, act like Im cool
Cant face others, ashamed of myself
Cant return to normal, I becoming a fool

I wish he is back again by my side
Cant imagine him with another girl in his arms
When its suppose to be me there
But people changes, Im left alone and alarmed

Just wish he is mine again
Wish to cuddle together again
Wish he'll kiss my forehead again
Wish he'll hold my hands again

Just wish he confesses to me again
Wish he'll sleep next to me again
Only wish Ill hear "I love you" again
Wish that He's my Sayang again...

Letting Go

"If u love him,
Let him go.
If he's destined to be urs,
He'll come back.
If he doesnt come back,
He's never yours."

These words I've heard long time ago.
Never tot I'd apply it in my life.
I love you so much all I want is ur happiness.
Im letting u go... Just fly away...

It hurts so much to let him go.
But I have to, not cos I want to...
If only I can keep him inside a glass box, I will...
But he's a human being...
A boy with feelings...
My heart really had broken to pieces...
Tears falling down each time Im alone...
Sometimes even when Im in public...
So embarassing but lost control of it...
Lost control of something meaningful in my life...
Lost control of my own feeling...
Emotionally unstable but have to overcome it...
A week passed by but still can't manage myself...
Im not myself...
I tend to make others hate me now...
Feel like if everybody hate me, then I can go quietly...
But I just cant... Guilt is present...
I dont know what else I can do...
Discussed it with him...
He told me to forget him...
I dont want to...
I refuse to...
But I have to...
I hate it soooo much...
He's so meaningful for me...
He's a part of my life now...
Not only he's my boyfriend, he's also my brother n a best friend...
Its so hard to let him go as a bf...
O, how I wish this never happened...
That he never leave my side...
That he never have to go back...
That he never told me he loves me...
That Ive never met him...
That Ive never came to Perak...
That Ive only been dreaming this whole time...

But in reality, Im really suffering...
From myself... Ive become needy...
I need him in my life...
Dont ask me why, I really dont know...
All I know is I really love him...
I wonder if all this time he had said it,
When he told me that he loves me...
Are those for real?
How can he say all of those then forget about me?
How can he say all of those without thinking how I'd feel?
How can he say those to me then left me?
All the memories I've had with him...
All those I cant just throw away...
I tried throwing them away but they came back eventually...
Everywhere I go, I can see his face...
Everywhere I turn, I think of him...
He's everywhere... Everywhere...

I dont think that I can get him out of my mind...
I really care about him...
I really do, sooo much...
I just wish that he doesnt forget about me completely...
I wish he'll always remember the good times we've had together...
I wish he'll never regret the times we've spent together...
I dont want to forget this meaningful event...
He never hurt me, just this once...
This one time only...
Although it hurts so much but he means no harm...
I still love him... Love really hurts...
I think I may hate love...
I just dont know how I should act...
I dont how what to feel...
I need support but from whom???
All I can do is write here and pray to God...
Im much of an egoist to tell others...
Im afraid they'll laugh at me...
Afraid they make fun of me...
Afraid they cant understand me...
Tried to tell him but afraid he'll hate me...
Afraid he'll get angry...
Im afraid Ill act stupid...
Im afraid of everything now...
Dear God, please help me...

Oh God, I pray to You...
Please help me...
Help me to ease my mind...
Clear my mind of this event...
Help me to calm down and rest my mind...
If he's not for me then help me forget about him...
If this is one of Your trial for me, help me get through it...
Dear God, please protect him wherever he is...
Whatever his decisions are, help me to accept them...
Just need You to help give me strength and to catch me each time I fall...
Help me get back on my feet...
He left my side but I hope You wont...
He left my side but please take care of him...
He left my side but I hope You wont leave him...
Stay by him and guide him to the right path...
Please do the same thing to me too...
Thank You so much... I love YOU...

It's Over!!!

3months and 3day... Then, it's over...!!!
As sudden as he told me that he loves me...
As sudden too did he left me...
My heart broken to thousand pieces...
I lost him! I lost him! I lost him..!
I dont believe it... I lost him!!!!!!
Im not forgiving myself cos I know it's part my fault...
Dear God, plis give me strength to stay strong...
Many suicidal plan is playing in my mind...
Im unable 2 normally control myself...
Just a little bit more over the edge, Ill lose it...!
Just bring on the temptation, Ill accept it...!
Plis... I really love him...
Even if he's no longer my Syg...,
Plis protect him... Bring him back to the right path...
Plis God... I really do care about him...
I dont mind if he's not feeling the same...
I just want him to be happy...
Take good care of him for me ya...
I love YOU...

Wat a relief...

He might not know dis, but my worry was about to get critical...

Wat a relief dat he had finally replied my msgs...

All my heart content...

I poured on this blog's carpet...

All but only for my own way of expressing...

The expression of self thoughts...

The thoughts I just cant seem to share with anyone else...

Thank you God so very much...

Finally he responded to me...

Im thankful he's ok...

So very glad dat he's alright...

Thank you so much for everything...

Thank you for listening to my prayers...

Sorry Lord, for all the doubts I had...

Doubts bout myself n bout him...

Felt so foolish of wat I thought...

Felt so angry that I was stupid...

So very pissed I ever doubted him...

But Lord, u sent ur Angles down to me...

Told me to hold them all in...

Keep them to myself...

U told me to wait...

So I wont make stupid decisions...

And Im so very glad dat U did...

Thank U Lord for everything...

Thank You Lord...

I LOVE U, King of all kings...

Silence.......................................

Just like dat!

Without even a single word!

My Sayang is playing a game.

A game of silent words.

Sayang went silent for so long.

Honey feels terribly upset.

Crying all night

Trying to figure wats wrong.

Worrying all day

Scared dat he's all alone.

Not a word did he said

N he just went silent.

Its not dat I doubt him

Its not dat I'm cautious.

Its just dat I care so much.

Afraid dat he's in trouble.

I left messages and I called.

None replied and non answered.

Worried so much.

Feel so sad and blue.

Dont mind if he no cares bout me

Dont care if he forgots bout me.

All I want is for him to say hi.

To say dat he's okay.

I want to talk

I want to tell sumone

I want to express my feelings

But I just cant

Its not fair for him

They might missunderstood him

So I kept everything inside

All my worries I hide

Only here do I write

A space where my feelings flood

Love him so much

Cant bear to scold him

Even though my heart hurts so much

I can only blame my self...

All I want to know is my Sayang is alright.

Please... I nid 2 get news from u...

Plis God... Help me overcome my feelings...

Help me stop worrying...

Tears

Suddenly, all this happened...

What's the causal...?

Why am I too fragile?

Since when did I become a sensitive person?

Tears streaming down drowning my eyes.

Heart beats so fast i hurts so much.

Negative thoughts fill my head.

Insecurities concuring me fully.

No longer confident of own ability.

I wish I'm stronger than this.

Want to be more ignorant than this.

Hates this situation so much.

Hates the fact that I cry a lot.

Hates the fact I dont run out of tears.

Hate to pity myself at times like this.

My Prince

Like in fairy tales, movies and comics

The charming prince always so grand

Will fall in love with a wealthy princess

Or the prettiest maiden in the land

The prince so charming and handsome

The bride so lovely and pretty

A perfect fairy tale love story

So perfect every girl gets crazy

Used to dream to be the princess

Dream of being the pretty maiden

Wanted to be with the charming prince

Wanted the love life made in Heaven

But somehow am not the pretty maiden

Far from being the wealthy princess

Just a normal fat low self-esteemed girl

Only a girl always being teased

Our GOD so gentle and so loving

Our GOD so pure and also generous

Giving that girl a chance to be happy

The chance of be deeply in love

She finally met her perfect prince

The prince like in the fairy tale

He shines with the bright sunlight

He makes her smile, without a fail

Felt like she dont deserve him

He's much too good for her

But she's grown to love him so much

Cant bear to have him apart from her

She is me, and the prince is mine

My prince so loving and so kind

My prince I'll trade for nothing

My prince so very very fine

My prince I cherish I miss I admire

My prince I love so very dear
My prince always with me when I fall

With my prince there's nothing I fear

Goodbye For Now Sayang

Tick Tock So fast the clock striked

Time we spent together flew swiftly by

Not even 2 months we had been together

The time came for you to say goodbye

Felt so unfair the time is here

When we were having much fun together

Each opportunity we take and use

Getting to know each other much further

But somehow now we're separated by land

You're just so out of my reach

All I can do now is loving you from afar

Only your portrait to cure my itch

Missing you so much it hurts

Longing for your touch I love so much

Wanted to be by your side, safe n warm

Dreaming of your kiss so gentle and just

Now Im waiting for your return

Misses your smile and your twinkly eyes

Hope you never change just stay the same

Always be my sayang, always be mine.

***First Love***

Bits & Pieces fell off this heart

When the lovebirds flew away together

Seems like everything's about to fall apart

The green leaves start to die and wither.

Then out came a beautiful white dove

Flying freely and elegantly in the sky

Soaring so wonderfully up above

Healing the heart that had started to die.

It's so wonderful that it stopped to look down

Took the time to stop from the fly

Look et the ugly creature down on the ground

Thats staring up the sky ever so high.

Just like a love story declined

A heart broken to pieces so fine

Was ment in just a short time

By that sweet, sweet Prince of mine.

He mentioned those awkward words

While we chat thru Facebook that night

Felt so happy and yet felt so absurd

My Love life had finally began to take flight... ;p

* <3 Think about It <3 *

Beauty is just the game of our mind,
fooling and mocking us...
Desperate to reach the prettiest goal, right above our heads,
dat we stepped on evrything underneath us...
Waste precious time to worry bout others' perceptions
when they only deliver deceptions...
Long for those of others
that we leave behind all of God's vision...

Lovely Complex

He finally said it...
My stomach's filled with butterflies...
Im just not sure wat to do in response...
All is Holy in Your name...
I LOVE U so much... ;p