Let me be frank

I dun know...
My head said I dun mind
N I agree with it...
But I dun know y
My heart says 'just wait'...

Wat am I waiting for exactly
I've tried to give up...
Somehow, something always stops me...
Wanting me to continue waiting...
I just cant tell how much Im tried...
Tired of waiting for just 1 damn reply
Tired of being treated like a damn fool...
Dont get me wrong...
Im still in love with him...
But I... I... I dun know why...
I get jealous when he gives attention 2 others except me...
Im jealous when I see his gf's photo...
I admit, I'm not better than she is...
But still, the green eyed monster always manages to appear...

I hate missing him...
I hate myself for still loving him
Eventhough he had left me...
But still, I care about him...
Just hope dat one day soon, I'll go back to my senses...
Just let it go...
Just let it be...
But one thing dat I really want is to meet him...
Meet him for just 1 LAST TIME...
I miss him sooo much... :'(