It's Over!!!

3months and 3day... Then, it's over...!!!
As sudden as he told me that he loves me...
As sudden too did he left me...
My heart broken to thousand pieces...
I lost him! I lost him! I lost him..!
I dont believe it... I lost him!!!!!!
Im not forgiving myself cos I know it's part my fault...
Dear God, plis give me strength to stay strong...
Many suicidal plan is playing in my mind...
Im unable 2 normally control myself...
Just a little bit more over the edge, Ill lose it...!
Just bring on the temptation, Ill accept it...!
Plis... I really love him...
Even if he's no longer my Syg...,
Plis protect him... Bring him back to the right path...
Plis God... I really do care about him...
I dont mind if he's not feeling the same...
I just want him to be happy...
Take good care of him for me ya...
I love YOU...