I Wish...

How must I say this
How to say it the right way
FOr every moment Ive been through
Every single seconds of the day

I Never thought it could be dis way
Never knew it'd ended already
I never wish for it to happen
But it did, much too early

Still I cant forget you
Cant get you out of my mind
Damn this stupid feeling
So deep It hurts inside

Tried to laugh and crack few jokes
Manage to laugh but just minor ones
Scorny face so solemn and blue
Feel like shooting my head with a gun

Suffer a lot, never knew it could be
Never knew Im so weak, Oh Lord, this is not me
I dont cry over others, no way, no siree
But over him, my tears flow freely

Need to act happy, must draw a smile
Need to stay strong, act like Im cool
Cant face others, ashamed of myself
Cant return to normal, I becoming a fool

I wish he is back again by my side
Cant imagine him with another girl in his arms
When its suppose to be me there
But people changes, Im left alone and alarmed

Just wish he is mine again
Wish to cuddle together again
Wish he'll kiss my forehead again
Wish he'll hold my hands again

Just wish he confesses to me again
Wish he'll sleep next to me again
Only wish Ill hear "I love you" again
Wish that He's my Sayang again...